Becoming a man

This all started with my friend Bryan trying to meet women. So far in his life he hasn’t enjoyed much success in this area. I was trying to offer him some advice on how to better interact with women he meets. I couldn’t seem to practice what I preach though. I was also having difficulty meeting women after my October breakup with Jenne and even before that relationship. I have come to realize that I avoid talking to women because I can’t figure out how to open the conversation, and when I have, it has generally not ended so well. I would get nervous and start mixing up words and stuttering (and I’ve never had a stuttering problem). It seems that I lost my game! So, Bryan had been forwarding me these newsletters by David DeAngelo. They were basically just tips on how to meet and interact with women and feedback that he had received from satisfied customers. So, I did a bit of research and downloaded this guy’s e-book. I also got some audio and DVD seminars that he did. So in this research I discovered a lot of things about myself that I need to work on. First, I still was acting out of a boy mentality. I don’t wanna grow up I’m a Toy R US kid kinda thing. I realized that my relationships with women in the past were generally not successful because I was operating under this wussy boy mentality. I was being too insecure and needy. When I was in college, I was actually pretty comfortable in meeting new people. I was being cocky and funny as David D. describes. I somehow lost that after awhile of being out of school. So, anyway, I realized that I need to become a man in order to have the confidence to meet women. I think at this point, I am actually feeling like I am a man. I have been working out at the gym pretty regularly for the last 8-9 months. I have dropped about 20 pounds of fat and my muscles have grown. I can actually see a huge difference. I have had a few friends also mention that I seem different. I suppose it is due to the fact that I feel like I walk with a more confident upright manner. I have a smile on my face more often as well. For once in my life I can truly say that I love myself, I like who I am, I like who I see in the mirror and I’m really starting to feel like a man and not a boy trapped in an adult body.

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